I thought that I'd never be able to get over how much it hurt for you to call me a black hole of negativity.  

And I live through my days, through my life, with my friends, with my husband, with my family, I realize you were never there the second go around.  And you know what?  That's okay.  I'll add you to the list of people who have used me for something that I could give and let it be done with.  

But sometimes, when I drink a cup of tea outside at night, I think of that night under the blankets, under the stars.  When I drive by a garage sale sign, sometimes I remember an especially good Saturday morning of shopping.  And sometimes, when I think of home, I think of our house.  And then I remember.  I remember that you knew from Februrary that you were not going to be my friend after you moved out in August and that you were just being nice until then.  I remember that you used me for 6 months instead of doing the mature thing and leaving.  I remember that I called you when I thought my world was going to crumble as I drove off post from seeing Warren.  I remember that I trusted you.

Despite all that, I have friends here and at home.  Some that I don't trust as far as I can throw because they seem too much like you.  Some that I trust implicitly, that I'll never doubt their friendship because they never ask of me what they wouldn't do for me.  

I needed to write this.  It doesn't make much sense to you, I'm sure, and it doesn't need to.  I'm still alive, I'm happy and I know that I have some really terrific friends, whether they be in California, Washington, Texas, Georgia or anywhere else.  

Still, I wish it hadn't ended like this.  I wish it would have been more amiable.  It would have been easier to slip into acquaintance mode than to lose everything.  But I suppose you have to let go of the negativity in ones life to ensure that you'll have a positive life.  So, I'll thank you for removing the negativity from my life.  I'll always remember that while it hurt, it has brought some of the best things into my life.  Thanks for walking away and making it easier for me.